The Times are Changing...

...and I guess they always are. But every day I see more and more people realizing there is more to life than that what they currently perceive, realizing they are in pain, someone different than who they want to be. Don't worry, I'm psychotic too! Society tends to reaffirm us in pushing away our doubts about the current state of affairs. We are afraid to accept that we feel lost, so as not to be different. Its easier to just blend into the bullshit that we don't believe in than to find ourselves alone. We are driven to bury our doubts, our pain, our discomfort (drugs, sex and rock and roll baby!). Yet nearly everyone I talk to feels disillusioned, they don't know what they want out of life but yet feel like something is missing. I imagine a counterculture where the opposite occurs, where we are instead reaffirmed in confronting our fears, in accepting that we are lost, pursuing discomfort, driven to expand our awareness and live the life deep down we know we must live.

A Broken System

I have been traveling a lot, "chasing the dream" or maybe "living the dream" I don't know which, but sadly I didn't find the time to impart my feelings upon the WWW. Well here is a little Nihilist tinged lament written somewhere in transit.

Honestly I don't know. I don't know who I am. I don't know what to trust. Am I doing the right things? I try to believe yes, or at least trust there is a better way to live abut lately I have been doubting it. The illusion seems so thick, stuck in complete uncertainties never quite sure what is happening. I am full of rhetoric, I end up giving people advice but more and more I feel like there is nothing to anchor me down. So I guess I just try and have faith that there is something that truly matters, something that is really real. The world is calling me out of the dream . But what can I do? This is what I tell myself: simply experience, be the best person you can be, and learn from your experiences. But do I even truly believe that?